I am a little girl, a child stuck in a growing body. They want me to grow up, I want me to grow down. I am a loner and I like it like that. I also love people and so I am a walking contradiction. I need to dissapear. I need to float away and too shrink until I am skin and bones. Until I am waste. I lie all the time, I sleep with a teddy bear, I cry over nothing, I like to play games, I starve myself until I am dizzy and pass out, I break down in the bathroom because I am ugly and demented, I love things that aren't cool, I do things that are strange, I believe things that no one else dares to believe. I'll only learn to smile when I can dissapear among crowds like I never existed.